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[Aug. 12th, 2007|10:53 pm] |
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I can't take this much longer. I'm slowly giving in. |
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[Jul. 18th, 2007|08:31 am] |
Man last night was awesome. I met one of my moms friends who's like 2 years older than me and is an amazing guitar player. We got really drunk/high together and jammed for a few hours and it was one of the coolest times ive had on guitar. It was really weird because he has my current amp, the amp i wanted to buy next, my current guitar, my dream guitar that i want sometime in my lifetime, and most of the pedals i have. His style was even really close to mine and I loved everything he played. I literally almost peed my pants when I saw his Paul Reed Smith guitar. Definitely a night well fucking needed.
My grandparents from South Dakota just got in town yesterday so I went and saw em and im gonna hang out with them for a couple more days. It nice seeing them again and my grandpa has a cool sense of humor so it's fun to fuck with each other a lot.
I think i've decided to most likely just go back to Green River since its was closer than Seattle Central and its practically the same school. i'm gonna have to stay in Federal Way since i can;t afford to move out, so hopefully ill find someone cool to move in with to seattle within a year.
I really want a harmonica now. My mom has one and they're way easier to play than I thought...maybe not to be really good, but to at least bust out a song or to play along with a really song isnt very hard, but its fun to do.
oh yeah i forgot. when my mom and I were driving down broadway yesterday a guy ran full speed out in front of our car into the street. He had a wad of cash in his hand and two guys were chasing him full speed so im assuming he stole money and ran for his life. My mom had to slam on the breaks and the car was literally inches from hitting him. It was pretty scary that we almost killed a guy. He ran for about two blocks and tripped and face planted it and the guys surrounded him. Didn't get to see if they kicked his ass or not, though. |
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[Jul. 15th, 2007|11:27 pm] |
I know i told myself that it could happen, but it was still a huge surprise, and so soon. I thought that I was lonely before and my life was about to start going up, but it's just gotten worse. I'm so lonely now and it doesn't seem like anything is going right. A friend was supposed to come over tonight to watch a movie with me and they won't answer their phone now... I don't understand what i'm doing wrong in life.
p.s. i know i'm doing really bad right now but this doesn't mean i'm going to go do something extreme. don't worry. |
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[Jul. 7th, 2007|11:00 am] |
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Things are....weird right now for me. Once again, im stuck trying to figure out what to do for school. I can either keep going to Seattle Central and get an AA and still not know what I wanna do or go to Clover park in Tacoma and get an electrician degree. It would be a lot easier to be an electrician and do music on the side instead of music full time, and I would actually make money. Thing is, I really wanna move to Seattle and if I go to Clover Park then I would have to stay in federal way for at least another fucking year. I would still be out of the way from school AND Sarah. That's why it makes this a really hard decision. I fucking hate school and hate that I have to pretty much choose my path in life now.
So Sarah moved out and I have the apartment in Federal Way to myself until september. I really don't like being there anymore because it's way too big for just me and it's really lonely, which is really not what I need right now. I keep thinking to myself "man, when is Sarah gonna be home" throughout the day and then it's like "oh yeah....fuck." Im at her place right now and it's hard since this is exactly like the apartment and location that we were about to get in a month and now Sarah's the one who gets to live here and not me.
In other news, I have a new student that I'm teaching guitar to. He's 8 I think and has the attention span of a fly but it's been cool so far. I'm also teaching my mom and it's crazy because she literally just started guitar a couple weeks ago and she could play Wish you were here by Pink Floyd. I really need to find someone who likes to play the same type of music as me that's not my mom... I can't believe that I have this cool ass jam room with all the instruments i'd need and yet i've only jammed alone in it for the past year. I'm such a fucking loser sometimes and i'm horrible at making friends. I pretty much have 2 or 3 friends now and im lonely and yet I still can't get myself to make more or try harder to keep the ones I have.
I keep getting sucked back in a Taco Time also. After being there for over 3 years, they finally made me Supervisor and I feel like i'm finally being trusted there. I get to be in charge of people now and so far it's been really nice getting some respect from everyone. I really really wanna find a new job, but now I wanna have the supervisor title on me resume for at least a few months.
I have to buy a new bong too which sucks. Expensive... |
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[May. 17th, 2007|02:16 pm] |
My hard drive on my computer broke yesterday and I lost everything. I lost every recording that I had done on it which had all of my old recordings and all of the new stuff Sarah and I were working on. That computer was everything that was me and I feel like a huge chunk of my life was just erased. Music is the only thing that I feel I can actually do right and I have nothing to show for it now. When my dad told me the news I just dropped to my knees and cried. I was in the middle of organizing my files so I could burn everything onto a cd within a week or two. I can't even believe the horrible timing.
I feel the same as you, Kate. Thats weird that all of our work just got deleted. Maybe starting from scratch is a good thing?
I've been sick for the past week now and it's making things even more miserable. It bites because Sarah has been in Chicago since tuesday and I miss the shit out of her and I wish she was here to take care of me =/
In other news, I got to hang out with jeff at his place finally. It was pretty cool. |
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[Apr. 17th, 2007|11:45 pm] |
A lot of you girls are doing your top 10 celebrity mens list, so I 'm doing my top ten women.
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[Feb. 2nd, 2007|01:48 am] |
I got a new strat today. It cost me an arm and a leg but holy shit it sounds like sex and im so glad I finally have a really nice guitar. I really didn't like fenders before today but i'm in love with it.
I think I might have figured out what school im going to go to now. At least I was turned in the right direction.
( Mmmm Guitar here ) |
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[Jan. 16th, 2007|04:11 am] |
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Gah I don't understand this. I went to bed at 7 or 7:30am yesterday and woke up at 12. I've been tired all day and went to work. I'm sitting here at 4am after cleaning the apartment and im wide awake. It's like the second I actually wanna go to bed my body fucks with me and says no! Does anyone know of anything I can do that doesn't involve prescription drugs? |
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[Jan. 15th, 2007|05:54 am] |
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It's five in the morning and im wide awake. I've been up this late about every other night for the past few months...Definitely getting old. I've also been getting extremely tight around my neck and it hasn't gone away for a week now and it's getting really annoying.
This is my first post in almost five months. I come read shit 4 or 5 times a day and yet it took me that long to post. I looked and my last post was "Sarah and I got the apartment, fuck yeah." It's so nice to be on our own and have our own damn rules. Not that I really had many before, but it's still nice.
Let's see, I started going to the Art Institute in the fall and I have to say that it sucked. Throughout the quarter I slowly started getting sadder and sadder and hated pretty much everything. I kind of brought around a sad aura that I couldn't help and I couldn't take it any more.
After a lot of thought, I quit AIS right before this quarter started again. Music has always been my biggest passion but I never thought I could make it my main focus. I said fuck it, so I don't care if theres a chance of me not being able to make much money now, Im finally going to be doing something that I love. I'm going to eventually get a music degree but I haven't figured out where yet. I can't even believe that I'm now going to be focusing most of my day on music and i'm so excited I could pee my pants. My mood multiplied by a million literally when I did this all and I've been really happy the past couple of days.
I asked Sarah to marry me in December so i'm pretty fucking excited for that. I couldn't find the ring I wanted anywhere so I went and sat down with a ring designer and drew out the ring that Sarah has on her finger. Took 3 weeks for them to make it but it was definitely worth it.
Holy Crap theres nothing on tv!!!!
I got a frickin digerigoo for christmas and I can't play the damn thing. I guess you have to learn it like other instruments until it actually sounds ok. I'm gonna have some work and some pissed off neighbors for a while, but at least i'll be the only person on the block who can play a digeridoo.
Ima go try and sleep again.... |
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[Aug. 25th, 2006|12:16 pm] |
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Sarah and I got the apartment. We're moving out in 3 weeks. Fuck yes. |
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[Jun. 14th, 2006|01:02 am] |
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Holy shit I think I just made my best piece of music ever. Too bad it's too much in the early stages for people to see. That made my night...hell...week. |
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[Jun. 13th, 2006|10:29 pm] |
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Guess who gets to go to summer school? I didn't graduate. I tried and I failed...whatever. |
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[Jun. 8th, 2006|12:23 pm] |
I fucking love when shit just crashes down on me all at once.
I now believe there is about an 85% chance of me not passing and not graduating because of the one stupid class.awesome |
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[Jun. 5th, 2006|10:11 pm] |
I wonder if i'll ever be comfortable. This weekend was one of the best weekends i've ever had in my life, and you know what I did? Absofuckinlutely nothing. Sarah, my parents and I all went camping at dashpoint and it was freaking awesome. We sat around doing nothing but talk...and other stuff. I have the coolest parents ever and I definitely consider them some of my best friends. Anyways, I didn't have to think about anything during the 3 days. It was nice to not have to worry about one thing in my life right now. I constantly feel like there's always something bothering me and always something for me to worry about in the future. It's pretty easy since im graduating in a week so there's a million things to be worrying about. I just want to have a life where some days I can just sit back, relax, and literally have nothing to worry about. That probably barely happens to anyone and it won't be til I retire...i dunno.
Im failing a class at green river right now and it's one I need to pass. Iv'e never failed a class in my life and the one time I do, it's gonna fuck up my graduating. There's probably a 50/50 chance that i'll pass...well actually I think no matter what ill fail if the teacher goes by points in the class, but i'm hoping shes cool about it and sees that im trying and passes me. It's weird for my because ive always been that smart kid who can get good grades without even trying, but im so lazy that I dont give a crap and end up getting c's and sometimes b's. For the past few weeks ive been trying hard to get a decent grade in this class and im still getting bad grades. It's the first class where I actually tried and still did bad. Now I know how those people who always got mad at me when I got a good grade on a test without studying and they did poorly when they worked their ass off. blahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh |
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[May. 3rd, 2006|01:17 am] |
Today was freaking awesome...I decided to not go to school since I was really tired and today was a holiday. Tool's new cd, 10,000 Days, came out and we listened to it 3 or 4 times. The cd is amazing and I was in love with it from the start.
I also fixed my bongos. I week ago I was "out of it" and I hit my bongos with my sticks and broke the skins. They we crappy ass skins that were practically paper. Anyways, I replaced them while listening to tool with real leather. They turned out great and sound really good.
Soooooooooooooooo.......
A lot a bit of this
During a lot a bit of this 
Makes for some awesome euphoria.
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[Apr. 25th, 2006|11:41 pm] |
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So on May 13th my band, China Express, is playing at a "show" in Des Moines. We're playing with Danes band Downpour and 2 other bands. It's at someones hows in the back yard and its like 5$. You guys should all come and if you say you came for us then we get part of the money. I know most of you are in the play so I dont think many people will be able to go. |
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[Apr. 4th, 2006|10:56 pm] |
Guess i'll do this for the few people that read my LJ.
Post a thought/comment/secret/anything here anonymously. IP Addresses will not be logged or traced. |
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[Mar. 30th, 2006|03:35 pm] |
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So im watching the vh1 show that shows funny internet clips(i forget the name) and it keeps showing ones where two people film themselves while singing to stupid songs. I thought to myself "what dumbasses film themselves doing these stupid things in the first place?"...and then I remembered Holly and Travis...and I shut up. |
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[Mar. 24th, 2006|11:00 am] |
My mom asked me to record a couple of songs without vocals for her birthday, so I did. I played/recorded all of the instruments myself. These are my first recorded covers with real drums finally. My parents loved them so im going to start record a lot more. We figured when we have a party or get drunk or something, If i have like 10 or 15 of these, we can do some drunk kareoke to them...haha
Rage Against the Machine - Killing in the Name
Incubus - Battlestar Scralatchtica |
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[Mar. 23rd, 2006|03:11 am] |
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I can't sleep. I already have a really hard time getting to sleep and the past few days have been even worse. Im not tired at all but theres nothing to do and i just want to freaking sleep. I've also been dreaming a lot lately. I never ever dream but the past 3 or 4 days ive been dreaming the entire time im asleep. Does anyone know if that means anything? it's weird. Im also hungry and I cant find any food...=/ |
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